My life has not turned out the way I planned. Whose has?
I have served in the United States Air Force, not graduated from college as I had assumed. My over 13 year marriage is on the way to divorce court. That was something I never thought could happen to me; however, not marrying someone with the same belief system could have had something to do with that. Not seeking God's leading in the matter of marriage was definitely not the way to go. My baby girl died of a fairly rare, random chromosomal disorder called Trisomy 18 or Edward's Syndrome. I have dealt with marital separation twice, extended Army related separation twice, countless short term Army separations, a husband who never put God, his wife, marriage or family ahead of his career and has made many life altering decisions that we cannot seem to overcome. We have a wonderful son finishing third grade, though all of this is clearly having a negative effect on his tender soul.
I have had many difficult times and I'm quite sure they are not over yet. What keeps me going is my faith in God through Jesus Christ.
For now, I do not know why things happen as they do, other than the fact that we do not live in a perfect world. I know God allows things to happen for a reason. Right now, I do not know the reason. It is like looking at needlework from the back. The picture makes no sense. But when seen from the front, the view of the artist, the picture takes shape and becomes beautiful. The best works have lights and darks, brights and bolds. I have faced them all. But God is Faithful. He has never left me and has promised He never will.
Grab a cup of your favorite beverage, kick back and take a stroll through my site. I have two primary purposes for this site. The first has always been to keep family and friends up to date on our lives. The second is to give people hope. Hope that even though tough times come, they can be survived. Hope that even when given a tragic medical diagnosis, God is still there. Hope that life can someday return to "normal," albeit a "new normal."
Join me, won't you?
